Would I?

If I were to rewind time,back to that day,will I choose to ignore what you did and continue being good friends? Or will I make the same decision as now and lose you but get someone better in return?

Classes are going to start soon.

Somehow,I want to see you,but at the same time,I also don't want to see you.

I'm nervous as the day gets closer.
How will I react.How will YOU react?

Will the teachers think we're still good friends and pair us together again?

Will it be really awkward? Will we quarrel in class?

All these questions and doubts.I really dread class.

If it means I will see you every week,I think I'd rather quit.

What more hurt can you bring me? How much more lies can you tell?

How much more can I take from you?

It's stupid how I can still miss you.
If I'm always being reminded of you,how can I forget?

I'm stupid enough to let you into my heart.Now I can't remove.

I bet I'm already gone from yours.

This week is getting more and more stressful,especially today.

Had to study for HCL and history.Regretted not studying yesterday.

Spent almost the entire day studying.If it weren't for C's help,I wouldn't have been able to memorise everything.

Went to Amelia's house today with Nerine.

Bought KFC at compass,then took bus to her house.

Studied chinese like crazy.Many funny moments.

It's good to laugh.Felt more relaxed,carefree.

But it didn't last long.

Called C,asked her over to my house,she helped me study.

The first thing she said when she saw me was, "Are you okay today?".

Couldn't help but smile.Everytime she'll ask me this question before everything else.

Sometimes,she'll know by just looking at my face.

Someone could be so observant.

Talked to her a little about upcoming class,back to the topic about her,felt so much better after that.

She's gonna come over after CT.(:

I'm gonna feel comfortable again.I wish you were in my school.):

Perhaps she cares more than others,that's why I could only feel her concern.

I don't even trust my closest friends and yet I could trust her.

I don't feel awkward with her like how I feel sometimes with my friends.

I just cannot imagine what would my life be if I didn't meet her.

I'm fucking tired of having fake friends.Two-faced.Fake their concern,ditch about me behind my back.And endless lies.

Backstab me for all I care.

Even if everyone I know judge me,YOU won't ever.And I'm sure of that.

I love you, CLKY.