Lost.

I don't know what to do now.I'm losing confidence in myself.What if I can't find it? What if it isn't there like I wish it were? What if it's gone and never coming back? I don't want to end this too.But what happen to that very very important thing? Why is it gone? Why?! I really don't know how to face you if I can't find it.I feel really bad right now. You love me so much,you did so many things for me.And yet all I can do is to hurt you and break your heart.I wish someone can just send a punch across my face.Because I deserve it.