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YOU.

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School was normal today.
Almost pulled my muscle again while running 2km.
What's wrong with my damn leg.
Monitor's investiture over finally.No more dreaded rehearsals man.
Lunch with Lavinia and Amelia at compass macs.
Laughed a lot.Super funny moments. :D
Sports Day and Beijing trip coming soon,excited.^^
But sad cause I won't be able to see PARK JUNG MIN. ):

I don't know what to do.
I know who I want,but I also know what will happen if I make my decisions.
I've already broken two, I don't want to break another one.
But it's never going to happen.It's impossible.
Well, you're so unpredictable, I can't believe you.
Your heart changes as fast a bullet train.
I know who I want,but I'm scared he won't want me anymore.
I didn't treasure him, broke his heart and now,I want him back.
Hiaz,seriously,what should I do.

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It's funny how I managed to survive one year without you,and when you talked to me all of a sudden yesterday,I just felt everything coming back.

I never admitted to myself that I still think of you sometimes,I always find ways to avoid things that reminds me of you.

I never admitted that I miss you.NEVER.But after yesterday,I realised how much I did.

I realised that I missed the times when we were still together.

Knowing you since young, no one knows you better than I do. I bet.

Every seems to predict that we'll be together when we grew up. And we did.

But I wasn't for long.

All the times I spent with you were the best ever.

You can give me happiness that no one else ever could.

With you, I know I'll never be replaced.

I still keep everything you gave me. The photobook,the letters, the shells, the colourful sand.

I told myself I didn't like you anymore.

I avoided you,ignored you,didn't talk to for many many months.

BUT I MISSED YOU.

I miss every single day we spent.Every phone call we made.

Valentine's day was lonely without you.

I don't know what came over my mind when I want the break.

I don't know if I should regret or not.

I don't know if I still like you or not...

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I tried,I really did.

The past few days are filled with so many sports activities.

Went swimming with Lavinia last saturday after Beijing trip briefing.

Taught her freestyle and trained for milo triathlon.

Slacked at the children's pool.Never felt so relaxed before.The kid's pool was like heaven on earth.Seriously.

Nerine and Amelia joined us at around 3+. Swim for a little while more then went to Hougang Stadium to practice for Heats 2.

Ran 800m,100m and almost 800m.Didn't manage to complete the last 200m for the final 800m training.Stupid muscles.Always have something happen to you.

Just when I was about to sprint the last 200m, my muscle strain or something.

Couldn't bend my leg and there's a bulge sticking out.

Tried to force it to bend like crazy then finally felt abit better.Got scolding from mum for training too much.):

Had to go to Sentosa for the milo triathlon swimming practice.

Woke up super early.It's been so long since I woke up like 9-10+ during weekends.Tired ttm.

Muscle ached alot ever since exercising so much the previous day.

Met Lavinia at Boon Keng mrt. She went into the wrong train. Haha.

MRT-ed to Vivo together and took monorail to Sentosa.

We were like tourists cause it's our first time taking monorail to Sentosa.

Felt so amazed by EVERYTHING.Hehe.

Walked to Palawan beach and changed into our swim suits.

Had to swim quite a lot.Didn't dare to use much of my leg muscles cause scared strain again.

Swam like super slow.Quite disappointed at my performance that day.

The currents were always pushing me to the shallow end.):

And the sea bugs just love me so much.Always biting me until got red marks.Stupid bugs.

Anyway,it was so tough for me to swim that day. But was sort of fun.(:

Slacked awhile at the beach with Lavinia.Just playing with sand and stuff.Felt really really good.

Bathed,had BK with Lav,then home.

Super tired when I got back.Had afternoon nap for the first time this year.I think.

School again.Everyday just have to wake up so damn early.

Couldn't concentrate much.But was looking forward to early release for heats.

Feeling so stressed out for heats since the day I knew I was running.

But 800m postponed,meaning I can't relax yet.Heard that it will be this week. :/

Ran like crazy for 200m.Knew I couldn't win cause my competitors were all super fast people.

But thank God, I got THIRD.Damn happy.^^

At least didn't get last.Hehe.

Cheered for RAT when she was running. :D

Was having St.EL and St.CAT cheering war with Lavinia,Vanessa and Candice.

Me and Candice screaming like mad for St.EL then the two bunnies also screaming for St.CAT.

Damn funny.HAHA.

MRT-ed home after Heats to say "HI" to my new laptop. (Y)

Today,don't know why feeling super annoyed.

But mood got better after PE.

Paced Jaya for 1.8km. I feel even more tired pacing then doing the actual running myself.

It's like I have to control myself to slow down.TSK.Felt seriously breathless.

Maybe my stamin decreasing already. NOOOOOOOOOOOO.):

Got our milo triathlon goodie bag.^^

Everything is awesome except for the shirt.

They gave me Size L. Can be dress already.Planning to change size on the day itself.

Last lesson of calligraphy.Felt that the teacher very ke lian.):

But got A for my work today! :D

Walked to compass with RAT.(:

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I hope this tears will stop running someday
Someday after this darkness clear up
I hope the warm sunshine dries these tears

When I feel that I’m getting tired of looking me exhausted
I want to give all my dreams I’ve kept hard
Every time I feel that I’m lacking in many things more than I have
I lost strength in my legs and drop down

I hope this tears will stop running someday
Someday after this darkness clear up
I hope the warm sunshine dries these tears

Everyday I hold out comforting myself “it’ll be alright”
But it makes me afraid little by little
I tell myself to believe in myself, but I don’t
Now I don’t know how longer I can hold out

But wait it’ll come
Although the night is long, the sun comes up
Someday my painful heart will get well

I hope it helps me now
I hope the God will help me

I don’t have enough confidence more and more to overcome myself

I hope this tears will stop running someday
Someday after this darkness clear up
I hope the warm sunshine dries these tears

But wait it’ll come
Although the night is long, the sun comes up
Someday my painful heart will get well

Someday…
Someday…

FUCK YOU KAY.I TELL YOU FOR THE LAST TIME,WE.ARE.NOT.TOGETHER.ALREADY.I DON'T FUCKING CARE IF SHE'S THERE.I DON'T FUCKING CARE WHAT SHE'S DOING.I DON'T FUCKING CARE IF SHE'S SITTING OR STANDING.WHATEVER SHE IS DOING,IT.HAS.NOTHING.TO.DO.WITH.ME.SO STOP GIVING ME THOSE STARES WHENEVER YOU SEE HER AND STOP TALKING TO ME ABOUT HER CAUSE I.DON'T.FUCKING.CARE. THE NEXT TIME YOU TRY TO SAY WE'RE TOGETHER AGAIN I'LL JUST FUCKING SLAP YOU IN THE FACE.

Just when I thought I was going to start again,you popped into my mind.When will I ever get over this?

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Everything felt different today.
Probably cause I let everything out last night.
Just looking at the sky,looking at the clouds and the leaf falling from the tree.
It looks almost magical.Like everything is beautiful once again.
I hope to feel this peace more often.
And yeah,I might still think of you.But I'm thinking about the good times.
And I'll always be hoping for a day where we'll be like last time again.

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It's better today.It'll be better tomorrow.

Had GG Thinking Day celebration at Sengkang Secondary today.

Went to Eunice's house early in the morning to ask her mum help me tie hair. :/

I feel bad for always troubling her mum.My mum should go and learn how to tie.

Had such a hard time tying the scarf.In the end Eunice help me and only do one time then perfect already.Tsk.I'm so stupid.

Walked to school together,met Nerine and co. at canteen.

Gather at basketball court then WALKED to SKSS.

Saw some familiar faces.Surprised that they're in guides.

Thinking Day celebration was really boring.

I don't wish to go next year but I have to.

Anyway,SJC guides won BRONZE award for the Thinking Day song video thing,I think.

Which means we'll get extra LEAPs points. (Y)

Finally celebration ended.

Had lunch with Nerine at compass then went home.

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You can’t tell someone you love them and then change your mind. That is not how it works. Once you love someone, you always love them. Don’t you? Isn’t there a part of you who thinks of him/ her for no reason whatsoever? They will always be in the back of your mind and no matter how much you love someone else, you always love him/ her too.

Feeling so tired now.Running with muscle ache just kills you for a while.

Got back only 3 CT papers.The teachers are so slow.Esp. MDM Y.

So far quite okay,no Bs/Cs YET.Surprised at bio results for the class and myself.

A lot of things coming up.I feel so stressed out.

Hope TS charity event will help me feel a little better.Doing something for a good cause.

And also doing it for Kyu. <3

Gonna go swimming/running again I guess.

Felt so pathetic today.Stamina dropped so much.

Stupid guy run so funny,made me laugh and then timing increase.

I don't know why but my mood is just so bad.

I feel bad for ignoring my friends when they ask me something just cause I don't want to answer it.What's wrong with me.

More things I heard that's making me flare up.

GG Day is coming.Looking forward to tomorrow.

I'm gonna learn how to fold paper cranes and turtles soon.For JoongBo's sake.

Thanks for making me feel this way.I'm sure you know I'm talking about you.

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