Tuesday, April 19, 2011

Should stop wasting my time.





So much have happened.
It's like I've been living with my eyes close.
I must've have really blind and stupid.
I regret, but I'm not going to give a damn about you anymore.
I can't believe I actually had feelings for a lying cheating flirt.
I should have known better. I should have never chosen the second one.
I feel like I'm so dumb to actually give you another chance.
WELL, THERE'S FUCKING NO SUCH THING AS A THIRD CHANCE NOW.
I've seen enough, and I know better now than to trust you ever again.
I don't need someone like you in my life.
Always saying I don't treasure you, I give you up too easily etc.
But who's the one who made me do all this.
Like you fucking treasured me before?
I can never have a permanent place in your heart.
EVERY SINGLE TIME WHEN I'M WITH YOU, YOUR HEART STRAYS.
I'M SICK AND TIRED OF THIS.
If you really like me, you would never have fallen for another.
Which proves my point about you being a liar.

" The word i don't like her tells you that i really don't like her"
"I thought I like her too but I don't seriously. I can't feel a thing for her."

CRAP. LIES.
You talk about what, don't want to hurt me and stuff.
PLEASE LUH, you like her than tell me la. I don't even care if it hurts me cause I already know.
It wouldn't even hurt me if you tell me, cause I know your heart will change sooner or later.
Asking me what do you mean to me, I seriously should be asking you that.
AGAIN AND AGAIN, I CAN NEVER TAKE HOLD OF YOUR HEART AND MAKE IT STAY.
WHAT DO YOU TAKE ME AS. SOME TOY IS IT.
YOU SAY ALL THOSE CRAP TO GET ME BACK, THEN GO FIND SOMEONE ELSE.
AFTER THAT YOU WANT TO GET ME BACK AGAIN THEN YOU GO FIND SOMEONE ELSE AGAIN.
I'M NOT SOMETHING FOR YOU TO TEST YOUR FEELINGS.
WHAT YOU LIKE ME A LOT ALL THOSE SHIT.
IF YOU REALLY DO, THEN YOU STILL CAN GO LIKE SOMEONE ELSE?
LIKE WHAT IS THIS.
From the very beginning I WAS FUCKING RIGHT ABOUT YOU.
YOU'RE A FUCKING LIAR. EVERYTHING YOU SAY IS NOTHING BUT A PACK OF LIES.
I GIVE UP. I DON'T WANT TO EVER HAVE TO PUT UP WITH YOU AND YOUR LIES.
JUST THE SIGHT OF YOU PISSES ME OFF.
JUST THINKING ABOUT GOING STEADY WITH YOU DISGUSTS ME.
I DON'T EVER WANT TO BE CALLED "HORSE" AGAIN.
Wasted so much, gave up so much for someone that treats me like a toy.
All those things about finding others as my substitute, now just find some fucking person to take over me.
GET OUT OF MY LIFE.
I'M GONNA START AFRESH WITHOUT EVER FUCKING HAVE TO HAVE ANYTHING TO DO WITH YOU.
I HATE YOU.

You always seem to know. I'll have to get you back.
You were that person I'm searching for all along.
Even if it doesn't develop into a relationship, I still want my best friend back.
Thanks for today. Sorry for the snot and tears.
ILOVEYOU.

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