You can't force love.

071110

Went out to celebrate bro's birthday.New York New York for lunch.Hot plate spagetti (Y). Didn't get to drink my apple cooler though.But I got a gigantic cup of Rootbeer float instead :D. Saw the shop at AMK right outside the restaurant. ♥ Bugis next.Wanted to buy USB cable for camera but they don't sell.So...going to buy a new cardreader.Went to Bugis Junction just to see the shop ♥.I think I'm crazy.My dad said he's quite handsome (Y).To me,he's more than just "handsome".(: Bought McFlurry again.3 days in a row^^. Had a break at Toastbox.Ate toast,drank ice lemon tea,plus my McFlurry.Felt super full buttttt had to go to Grandma's house to eat dinner.At first thought that we were going to just eat porridge only.Who knows they decided to give us a treat cause bro's birthday.In the end,had a very heavy dinner.I felt bloated ttvm.At night,Grandma not feeling well.Heart beating super fast.Drove her to the hospital.

081110

Went back to school for guides meeting.Saw many people making cca banners at the basement.Lavinia were there.(: Got grape stickys from Peixuan.Went into guides room and cut fishes.Used our fingers to apply orange paint on the fish.First time doing it,fun.(: Had lunch at KFC.Some weird man came to joke with us.Super weird,I think he escaped from IMH or something.But some jokes were funny.I couldn't stop laughing but I had to control.When we went back to school later,the school blacked out.But the weird thing is that the aircon in the com lab is still running even though they said that the whole school had no electricity.Waited for the electricity to come back so that we can do our proposals but waited very long.So Mr He(?) lent us his laptop.After doing proposals,laughed about the weird man just now and some other stuff.Super funny. :D Went to compass,comics connection.Found super awesome pictures! ♥ Waited for dad to come fetch me then went to hospital.The hospital is new and the bed's super soft.Bought cakes at Northpoint then home.Maggee for dinner.

091110

Woke up at 10 plus this morning.Felt great cause didn't get good sleep for many nights.Had breakfast then went to fetch Grandma from hospital.Watched Fated to Love You the whole day.Doughnuts and Bubbletea for lunch.Did a little bit of homework then watch tv again.My packet of stickys are almost gone.): Waited and waited.Then finally,my dad's friend came to return my computer. :D Now it's faster and no more virus.Haha.

I did not play with your feelings.I tried to like you the way you want me to.But I realised that I cannot.I want to have a normal life.I don't want to be held back.I don't want to always have to think about how you would feel when I want to do something.I think it will be better if we were friends.My life has been upside down for a long time,I want it to be normal again.Sorry but you can't force love.I'm sorry if I made you cry.And it's not that you're not attractive,it's all in the heart.If it's not meant to be,you can't force it.So,don't blame yourself.I'm sorry if I didn't tell you how I really felt earlier.But one thing is that,what I want is something you can never give me.