SHIMIN
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Sunday, September 26, 2010 @ 11:12 AM
 After saying everything out,I realised that it really doesn't help much.All I get from revealing my problems,is tears and pain.No comfort,no relief,NOTHING.Well,from now on,I will keep everything to myself.Whether it's anger or sadness.Because saying everything out,will only make me think of them more,when all I want to do is to forget them.Why make others miserable by letting them suffer with me? When I could make one person less upset by keeping things to myself.I get it now.Guess I'll never come out from my protection.But I guess that's okay.
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Saturday, September 25, 2010 @ 6:38 PM
 I finally know what LIFE is.LIFE is unfair,LIFE is full of troubles,LIFE is my personal HELL.I want to end this.I want to go somewhere far far away and never come back.After pouring my hearts out to you,I think I finally have someone who understands me totally.And if the world is really ending in 2012, we'll die together,I promise.You told me somethings that got me wondering.If I ever ended in hospital,who will be truly there for me,to care for me and tell me he/she love me,and who will just be there for show.When I die,who will shed tears of love and grief for me,and who will just shed crocodile tears or just shed tears for show.To show people that they love me even when they don't.And if I ever get out from my protection shield,who will be there to embrace me and accept me and allow me to trust them fully.Who?
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@ 12:38 PM
 Labels: i hate you |
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Friday, September 24, 2010 @ 6:34 PM
 English oral was today! Nerve wrecking): Never felt this nervous before.And before oral I was still so relaxed.Then when I was outside,my heart started beating super super fast :/ Anyway,today was a great day.I didn't felt bored at any lessons except for maths.PE was awesome.Volleybal (Y).I never knew volleyball was funner than netball.But then my hand was super red after all the hitting.Now have little purple spots :S This morning during meeting,I was begging people to write me for bottom five counsellors.Desperate to get out.I don't want to wake up early to go school just to sit there staring into space lor.Being a counsellor sucks.Didn't go for the pizza party after school.No mood to eat pizza.Before oral,talked a lot a lot of things with lavinia and pei xuan.After oral,very nervous.Shivering and feeling dizzy.Don't know why also): Anyway,it's all over so whatever.This week I ignored you for a few days.It's the first time I ignored someone for so long and felt so much anger in me.Hope that doesn't happen again! If not we're over okay? SHOCKING KISS ;D Labels: ignore, kiss, nervous, oral, volleyball |
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Sunday, September 19, 2010 @ 4:16 PM
 It's always my fault.Never once did I fail to hurt you.Always your heart breaks because of me.I hate myself.I hate my existence in this stupid stupid world.Why must I be put here to always cause hurt.I'm sick to see people falling because of me.I don't want to go on. To YOU. I really hope you know I'm talking about you.I'm still guitly over what I've done.Because of me,I ruined a perfectly good relationship between you and her.I still hope that it's not too late for both of you.I don't want you all to end like this because of my problems.I wish I can turn back time.Then I would not have told you about my problems.You would not have quarrelled with her.Everything will still be fine.I'm willing to do anything to turn everything back to how it used to be between both of you.Please please don't give up this relationship.Try your best to win her back.I will help you cause it's my fault.It's not worth it.Please.If you two end now,I'll feel guilty for life.DON'T GIVE UP TOO EASILY.There's still time.You have a lot of time to try to start over.Start being friends first like last time.I'm sure this will work out.Just Don't Give Up. Labels: don't give up, i hate myself |
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Saturday, September 18, 2010 @ 4:57 PM
 After everything you've said,after finally realising how hard it is to keep away from each other for even one day,I can't seem to think of the very last day of this relationship.You say that day will never come in your mind.But let's face it,it's getting closer with the passing of each day.It'll be hard to let go.
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Friday, September 17, 2010 @ 8:13 PM
 1509 Supposed to have lunch with her.But then suddenly cannot,then suddenly can again haha.But still didn't go for lunch.PE was super tiring.Got hit on the chest and hand.Sucks.Lessons were super boring as usual.Walked to compass,saw some bitches.Just leave us alone la.So kpo for what-.- 1609 No PE today.Class complained like hell.Really wanted PE lor.Finally went for swimming today.Fun ttm :D Swim with Regina for a while then went to watch them test.Some people damn funny.Hit the wall already still continue swimming.Laughed until almost choke.Janice can swim quite good eh(: But then she should be good what,since she LHY^^ Played monkey with goggles.Then when their lesson ended.Started playing :D Threw goggles and Pei Xuan's goggles snapped into two.Couldn't stop laughing.I piggybacked Janice(: HAHA. Nerine piggyback me,but I keep laughing then when reach the end we fell? Bathed,slack a while at macs then bused to compass.Waited super long for the freaking bus. 1709 Final session for guides today (Y).Now left with the camp planning (N).So tough to plan camp.So many things to do): Today was the most gracious girl thing during CD.Lavinia's voice is weird on the mic.But still cute(: Pei Xuan looks like tomato on stage.Her face was practically glowing red okay.After the thing,me and Amelia did some gross thing with bluetack.Then played "volleyball" with the bluetack.Last part of CD was the funniest.PE was fun.Center again.But then switch with Janice to be WA.Fun luh.At least I won't have to defend her again.So tough man): After school,laughed at canteen with Mei Jun,Sheng Zhi and Jing Yi.They are super funny :D Scary thing happened when Sheng Zhi and Jing Yi changing.But we were at different toilets.Heard about it from Sheng Zhi.Had some talk about saving the children at third world country or something during guides.Quite interesting ah,but then I'm not going to bring newspapers.Can't expect me to carry them to school right? Badgework fun also.Learned about some housekeeping stuff and flag ettiquete? Then messed up classroom ;) Games,really funny.Stayed back a while then home. I WONDER When I finally let go. Who will keep me awake,thinking at night? Whose smile will I look forward to? Whose laugh will I desperately try to trigger? Whose eyes will I get lost in? Whose face will I intently stare at? Things would change so much,I wonder how will I live after you? |
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Tuesday, September 14, 2010 @ 5:29 PM
 School started already.Stressed out over SA2.3 more weeks and I still don't have the patience and motivation to study): Hiaz.School was boring today,except for history.Did pH levels and experiment in science,maths suck,geog was funny.Kept tickling Phyllis with my balloon pen :D then there was a fly in the class.Haha.Super funny reaction from Phyllis.Couldn't stop laughing.Her whole face turned red.HAHA.History was great.Went to the hall and slacked(: Played truth or dare,funny.Assembly,sleepy.Walked to compass with her and she's damn naughty! Splash rain water on me,make my socks wet.Somemore still can laugh arh! Bought yellow file.Bought drink and waited for my bus.Some people are so childish and lame-.-
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Sunday, September 12, 2010 @ 4:33 PM
 I give up.It's like I don't know who you are anymore.As every single day pass by,I feel like I know you lesser and lesser.I don't know what is happening.Is it because I've changed? Or maybe you've changed.I don't know.I find the distance between us always getting larger and larger.I don't think this is going to work out anymore.I really really really just want to give up.It's miserable enough to think that I used to know you so well.I just have a feeling that it's all coming to an end.Is this all coming to a goodbye? |
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Saturday, September 11, 2010 @ 9:21 PM
 Thank you for everything.Maybe just "thank you" is not enough,but I don't know what else I can do.Sorry for making you cry time and time again.Don't ever cry over me again okay? Cause it's not worth it to waste your tears on me.Just make sure that whatever you do makes you happy.(: because that's enough for me. |
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@ 11:40 AM
I know they're your friends and stuff,so I don't care already okay? Don't want to ruin your friendship with them or whatever.But tell them to back off okay? Too much already.Really.And this is supposed to be a secret? Labels: pissed |
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Friday, September 10, 2010 @ 7:17 PM
 To YOU,I guess you know what the picture on top is talking about huh? ;D Except it's supposed to be tape and not plaster.HAHA.Cold and boring day today): Went out to orchard.Had lunch at a japanese restaurant? Didn't finish my unagi,too sweet :S The coke float sucks too.Supposed to be vanilla ice-cream and they put chocolate ice-cream.Maybe that's why it tasted so awful.Walked around.Kinokuniya again.Can't stand the crowd at taka,that's why went there for some peace and quiet(: My mum couldn't find me at the bookstore though I was still inside.We found out in the end that there were TWO kinokuniya bookstores in taka-.- Bought famous amos,walked around wisma then home. SOMEONE MISS ME UH? :D |
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Thursday, September 9, 2010 @ 5:08 PM
 Super pissed off with viikii and youtube now.I don't know what happen to the videos.Load finish already but then the video suddenly pause half way then can't watch.Fuck.And I was so excited for Playful Kiss ep.3,now can't watch.Cb la. Dad fetched me to school today.Breakfast at Hans with parents and bro,damn hungry that time.Spagetti (Y). Thought I was going to be late for school,but then reach quite early.Then got welcomed by Janice.Haha.Amelia bought sex bands for us.HAHA.And she didn't even know it's sex bands.Never mind.Got stickys from Peixuan :D Maths lesson ended early.Many absentees so didn't teach new stuff.Slacked around the piano with SHINee obsessed people.Taemin looks really pretty when dressed as a girl.Haha.Onew looks better though(: Waited for her.Walk to compass was damn funny and ridiculous.I blushed alot? :/ Bought bubble tea and food then went home. |
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Wednesday, September 8, 2010 @ 4:21 PM
 I'm tired already.I don't want to continue deceiving myself.I just don't know what can I do to make this less painful than it already is.I've had enough.I cannot keep trying to do something I don't want,find something that has never been meant for me.I feel myself getting more and more distant from the world because of my endless searching.I wish things were less complicated.Wouldn't it be better if we could just rewind time? Back to when our lives started changing into something we have never expected.Everything was so simple before.I don't know how long I can continue like this. Labels: love and life, tired |
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Tuesday, September 7, 2010 @ 9:09 PM
 Went out today with her.Had fun(: Supposed to meet at compass at 1.30,but someone was late.So walked around by myself.Saw my gold hairband,bought it.Went to comic's connection.So tempted to buy my broken keychain! But then decided not to.Save money ma.Then now left with lots of money to spend :D Saving for my SS501 cup and Yellow jansport bag.Finally she come.MRT-ed to vivo.Super thirsty just now.Had lunch at food junction(?) I finished my rootbeer.Haha.First time eh(: After lunch,went to the rooftop there to "play water".In the end,never play.Cause both wearing shoes.But then sat down there and roast our butt.Our so called 15-20min "tanning".HAHA.MRT-ed to plaza sing.Bought tickets then went comics connection.This time I bought something.KIM HYUN JOONG AS BAEK SEUNG JO IN PLAYFUL KISS PHOTOGRAPH.Damn damn happy :D Not really satisfied cause I only bought ONE.This was the outing I spent the least money on.Only bought 2 things! Maybe I can finally save money(: Forgot where we went next.Carrefour? Anyway,found my purple and black fbt,but then no size): Hiaz.Must wait for next time.Otaku house,Times,World of Sports.Walk until time for movie.Movie was okay,didn't understand much.But funny.Someone beside me laugh like crazy.Somemore her laugh super funny.You should know I'm talking about you hor? Hehe ;D Daiso,Spotlight.Cannot find straws.Waited for mum,mrt back together.Awkward ttm.Haha.Dinner at Northpoint then home. "I trust you" is a better compliment that "I love you" because you may not always trust the person you love but you can always love the person you trust. Labels: kim hyun joong, outing, ss501 |
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Sunday, September 5, 2010 @ 6:05 PM
 Today's weather is nice.Finally got to go out today.Went to J8 and Bugis.I saw someone wearing a golden hairband.It's so nice! A new item to my wishlist,and I just know where to get it: VIVO :D Planning to get it on tuesday(: Saw a really cute stitch plush,maybe going to buy for Wanching and also her SS501 YoungSaeng keychain :D But I don't know if I can go out with her not.Cause I'm already going out on tuesday): Bugis for lunch.Love the herbal chicken and the soup.Walk walk for a while.I saw my shop: FOX ;) Went to Kinokuniya,almost bought a book,but didn't,for the sake of the outing.Haha.Bought bread and went home. JANICE!! |
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Saturday, September 4, 2010 @ 4:19 PM
 The hike today was really awesome.Damn fun.Never knew Singapore has these kind of nice scenery.Started at Hort Park.So much greenery.Beautiful ttm(: The whole thing was a scavenger hunt.Went to Kent Ridge's bridge(?) to get to Mount Faber.Saw monkeys and squirrels.Climbed up up up.Reached the peak.Took jumpshot at the wooden bridge.The nicest scenery ever(: Then continued to go up and reached the cable car station.From there,went down.The trip down was so short.Maybe we took a shortcut? The paths were super rocky.Shengzhi almost fell down.Reached Harbour Front mrt then went to vivo for lunch.Meijun damn cute(: she went to buy a super big ice mountain water.Played around with water for a while then went home. Be who you are and say what you feel because those who mind don’t matter and those who matter don’t mind. Labels: hike, i don't know |
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Friday, September 3, 2010 @ 4:53 PM
 Finally the holidays arrive.Surprisingly,there's little homework (Y) I dread going for maths remedial): Went to school and got a present from Candice!! I love the present and card a lot :D thanks! I'll try not to be so sad anymore and I LOVE YOU TOO!! (L) hehe. Really pissed off during art lesson.Stupid.Everything also scold.I hate making windmills,make me want to rip the whole thing out when it doesn't work.But it did,eventually(: Called her during recess.HAHA.SHE HAS NO MORE INTESTINES IN HER STOMACH :D:D GO GET IT CHECKED BY THE DOCTOR LA! EVERYTHING ALSO DON'T LISTEN.TSK.PE was..............wtf.Wasted so much time talking and punishing the other team.Went to Yoshinoya for lunch with Lavinia and Shivani.Shivani born joker! Made me laugh so much.Especially when she bought one set of potatoes.HAHA!! SHE WON'T EAT POTATOES FOR DON'T KNOW HOW MANY WEEKS AFTER THIS! HAHAHA:D Went into popular and saw SS501 KOKORO ALBUM!! ARH!! I WANT THE ONE WITH KYU JONG'S HANDSOME FACE!!!^^ SHINee's Lucifer album is out.Had to drag Lavinia out :D Went to comic's connection and bought HYUN JOONG AND SS501 PHOTO CARDS!! GAH!! <3 <3 <3 I LOVE TODAY MAN!! Was laughing to myself on the bus home,two boys trying to kill some insect.Damn funny! Hahaha. Being hurt by someone you truly care about leaves a hole in your heart that only love can fill... |
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Thursday, September 2, 2010 @ 5:45 PM
 Awesome day today.Laughed a lot.Our conversation can actually range from fashion to which animal we look like.LOL.I'm a fox :D haha! I don't mind(: I think foxes are cute.Lavinia say I look like squirrel-.- One thing for sure.Janice is looks like a LUO HAN YU,because of her number one forehead! :D HAHA.Made fun of her a lot today :D Love the part when Lavinia started comforting Janice, "it's okay to have a big forehead,cause you won't lose out".Damn funny! Lavinia looks like a rabbit,Amelia is a cat and Peixuan is fishball,pearl and tomato.Fox eat rabbit,Cat eat Luo Han Yu! HAHA.PERFECT FOODCHAIN :D JANICE,I LOVE YOU EVEN IF YOU HAVE BIG FOREHEAD!! HAHAHAHA!! :DI hate having to always smile.I hate feeling numb.But maybe it's better this way,cause it won't hurt.But it sucks to have no feelings.I sick of pretending.How long have this lasted.Since the beginning of this year? I HATE LIFE. Don’t promise me forever, just love me day by day. No one knows the future, we’re young, but that’s okay. |
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Wednesday, September 1, 2010 @ 10:30 AM
 To YOU! Tell your rare brain to stop giving you stupid ideas okay! Don't ever try to do that again! Unless you want to forget about me): And you better tell me when your rare brain start having ideas,cause I'll find ways to stop what other silly things you're going to do! Better keep your promise! No matter what I'm feeling at the moment,you will tell me what is going on in your head.You made me so worried and angry last night! If your "experiment" ever succeeded,I'm sure you'll regret it! Anyway, MONTHSARY IN TWO DAYS!! HAHA! |
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@ 10:10 AM
 To dearest Janice Chua :D (you told me to write about you in my blog,so here!)Thanks for being a very good friend to me! You make me laugh with your very stupid actions! Especially the buddha jump! HAHA. I love tickling you! Remember last time during AE? You were crawling around trying to escape! I remember that time when you said you want to "roll on the bed" with me! HAHA.Then we gave Amelia they all wrong ideas. I remember you trying to carry me so many times.Haha! But you didn't piggyback me ): And when I took of your shoe in the hall and throw it around.You look so helpless! :D And and,I love defending you in netball! Oh,and the SPERM BALLOON! You make me remember so many happy times we spent together! :D :D :D But I hate it when you blame yourself for the pain I'm going through. It's not your fault,really! Don't keep thinking that you are at fault! Stop blaming yourself! Stop thinking that I hate you,'cause I don't. Actually,you should be the one to hate me. For being the cause of your relationship problems. Promise me never to do stupid things again! I've never seen a person with so many cuts on her hand! And remember you said you will stop _______. Remember the promises you made to me okay? No matter what,I LOVE YOU :D haha,yeah yeah holds hand everyday!! Labels: i love you, janice |