Demoralised

I'm feeling so wretched right now.Family problems.I really can't stand it anymore! I've been telling myself to chill and keep in control but seriously,I just went and blew my top today.

What more do they want from me huh? Haven't I already given them enough? I've been trying to be as obedient as you want me to be already.So far I still haven't broke any rules you set.What you want from me,I try to give you.Isn't it enough? Haven't I already met your expectations? Or will it just keep going up until I finally start to fall.How satisfied do you want to be huh? Do you even realise how much stress I'm under.You only care about my studies.I know they are important,but what if I really cannot cope? I have so many activities that I can't quit.And everytime I complain about stress and pressure,you threaten me by saying that you won't allow me to go for my activities.Isn't one whole morning of studies enough? Can't you even let me take a break in the afternoon? You expect all my weekends homework to be done by every friday.But do you realise how much homework I'm given? It's WEEKEND HOMEWORK,not friday homework.I've got no activities during the weekends.Why can't I do my homework then? I am NOT a superwoman.I cannot do so many things at one time.And when I finally blow my top and start cursing,you people scold me.But do you even stop to think why did I start doing the wrong things? What,because I enjoy it huh? Really,push me to the limit somemore,and when I finally turn crazy,you have no one to blame but yourselves.