Just imagine it okay. Feel it!

Like how blogger wasn't working for me like for 4 days?

I was cursing, swearing, worrying my heads off, trying to just log in.

Then I gave up and all, still cursing and swearing though.

And then, I decided to give it another try without keeping my hopes high and then BAM!, it actually works.

I was basically screaming to my brother and stuff. So now my mood is unusually good. :)

I was sort of dying when blogger was down. Kept a lot of stuff in me but now I can finally let it out.


I’ve been doing really a lot of serious thinking these days.
Life isn't going as well as I thought it would be.
Everything is acting up again, now I need to take 3 pills daily. :/
Haven’t been able to talk to him like I used to.
I’m doubting people, thinking that everything they say/do are lies. Pretense.
Seriously what’s wrong with me.
I told myself I’m not going to let some jerk affect me and change me. But I still did anyway.
I feel like everyone is out to play games with me.
They come and go as and when they like.
Treating me like a toy. Once you’ve had enough, you go off for something new.
And then, when you’re done with that new thing, you try to come back to me.
Fuck kay, it does not work this way.
I blame myself for being so stupid and easy.
Now I’m not who I used to be. Sympathy don’t work on me anymore.
You totally threw me and broke me, now I’m awake.
I don’t even cry easily but I’ve been crying more than usual.
I’ve wasted tears that I could have shed for someone much more worth it.
Ever since you called me a bitch, an asshole, I already know really how much I mean.
I’m all for making your life miserable, but I won’t even want to concern myself with you.
Yup, I’m done.
Thanks for making me feel so unwanted before, bringing others’ self-esteem down. Way to go.

Okay, I feel better. :)

I'm just so tired. Never felt like this before. Maybe I'm getting old? ):

The heat was a torture. It would have killed me.

Thank goodness we got third, or everything is just sooooo not worth it.

Blisters and a neck injury. Totally have no idea how the neck thing came about.

But it's freaking painful. Can't look down, can't turn to the right.

Better recover tomorrow. Let's hope I just accidentally crack some bone.

No more captain's ball for me man.

Awesome day with Lavinia, Nerine and Peixuan after school.

Bought my 2PM stuff. <3

If you don't understand what I mean, then don't jump to conclusions so fast.

Even if you use your brain, you also know what.

Like you said, you don't even know him, how to hurt him. Huh.

In case you didn't know, if I dislike someone, the more I want to find out things about him/her.

Everyone feels that way.

And you don't need to hope, I'm already very happy. Thank you.

You bring him into things that are only between us, it's unnecessary.

I don't care how much time you need, as long as I'm over you, it's enough.

Oh, to your future relationship or anything, don't accuse others of not giving you enough love.

Even if there's ever a day where I have to talk to you, I won't treat you the same. :)

Very very very very very very very very very very very very disappointed with lit results.

Just one more mark. Damn that fucking one mark.

People keep thinking I would get it, keep saying "me,me,me".

Making me think that I could actually get it.

Then when I found out I'm just so close, seems like everything is crashing down.

First time, first time my lit results are not up to my expectations.

My parents are gonna ask. My language is dropping a lot.

Everytime, for almost all the papers, I'm just one or two mark away from a higher grade.

Fuck, I feel like I'm playing some stupid game. Always so close to winning.

Overall percentage, again one more mark to hit distinction. Seriously!

At least I've gotten back everything, now can relax a bit.

Kim Hyung Jun coming SG. But I don't know if it's a concert.

Not going I guess, what if KHJ, 2PM, MISS A or something decide to come later this year.

Then if I go now, confirm can't go for the rest. Anyway, don't really like him so much.

June holidays are coming. Can't wait! Camp, camp camp camp!

FYI, I look fierce but that doesn't mean I am.

Sick of people telling me to smile more or whatever when I don't feel like doing it.

Don't need to care what people think. But anyway, I'm friendly. HEHE.

Soon it'll be the June holidays, Kim Hyun Joong's birthday! <3

Got back most of my papers.

Humanities were a satisfaction, HCL too. English, I'll just hope overall turns out well.

Today is a good day. All the papers I got back were distinctions! Pure bio, here I come!

Hopefully can take AMaths too, if I continue getting this kind of results. Hehe.

But must work super hard next semester to try to understand physics. I need Triple Science.

Must buck up a lot too. Or my position in class will fly away. ):

It's like I'm standing on a very breakable thread.

It seems like I'm going get taken over. I'm scared.

Anyway, have been spazzing alot with Lavinia.

Dream High vs Secret Garden.

Team Taecyeon vs Team Soo Hyun.

And Hyun Bin isn't as handsome as I thought! Hehe.

Chemistry, lit and art papers tomorrow. Please let me get A! Esp lit.

Lunch with Nerine, Lavinia and mum, and SZ today.

Bus-ed home with SZ.

Despising you isn't a pleasure to me.

It your attitude towards relationships that making me despise you.

Yes I don't understand what you're going through,

but I know for sure, your heart is not true to the person you are with.

Just to let you know, don't let others be too attached if you're not serious about them.

Feeling so empty now. I don't know how to explain it.

This drama is awesome cause it's like no other.

It's just so unique in it's own way that makes it stand out among all the other dramas.

Also because of this drama, I got introduced to other stars.

I love Suzy and Taecyeon.

Their oppa-dongsaeng relationship in real life is just really cute.

IU and Wooyoung, the milky couple. Just date already!

Really hope TaecZy and milky couple will appear in WGM.

Pretty please? I'll just go crazy if they did.

TaecZy! <3

Starting to watch Family Outing Season 2 now. :)

School's gonna start tomorrow. Dread x1000000000000000.

I just want to stay home and watch everyday. ): Sigh.

I choose to forgive, but I'll never forget.

I'm not going to be soft-hearted this time.

I'm not going to let you come into my life to let me down time and time again.

The first time, okay whatever.

The second time, I'm just plain dumb.

If there's a third time, I really wonder if I have a brain.

I'm not going to believe you again and get myself into so much complications.

I don't hate you, I just don't want to know you anymore.

Never regret, what's done is already done. Like you said, it's too late anyway.

No, things are not going to go back to the way it was. I don't want to.

Yes, I let go of things for awhile. But this time is different.

I'm going to let go for real.

Everytime it's like this, I've had enough already.

Don't tell me you love me when you're bound to change.

I won't believe, I don't believe.

Sorry, I can't grant your wish.

Enough is enough.

Woke up at 10plus and rushed to compass cause I thought I was gonna be late.

But I was earlier than Lavinia. Yay.

Headed to Burger King for lunch.

All along from the time we meet until the time we left, I was having war with Lavinia and Eunice.

We were battling about who suits Suzy better, Taecyeon or Sam Dong.

Supporting Taecyeon all the way! Stone face FTW. <3

Half open eyes, NO-NO. ^^

We were listening to Dream High OST and doing the powerpoint.

Laughed a lot, as usual.

I want to go again! Damn fun, felt really really relaxed. :)

Going to do again next Wednesday I think. Must finish!

No more sidetracking.

Just seeing other people cry, makes me feel like crying too.

I feel suffocated. Stressed. Burdened.

Not telling you what's wrong just makes me even more miserable.

Anyway, had dinner at Nex with family today.

Reluctant to go but still had to.

Didn't enjoy it at all. I miss my show.

Was complaining and scolding my bro.

Gonna go Nerine's house tomorrow for Beijing powerpoint.

Hiaz, I feel like staying home. But I gotta be responsible once in a while.

Time to party! ^^


SOMEDAY, WE WILL FORGET THE HURT, THE REASONS WE CRIED, AND WHO CAUSED THE PAIN. WE WILL FINALLY REALIZE THAT THE SECRET OF BEING FREE IS NOT REVENGE, BUT LETTING THINGS UNFOLD IN THEIR OWN WAY AND THEIR OWN TIME. AFTER ALL, WHAT MATTERS IS NOT THE FIRST, BUT THE LAST CHAPTER OF OUR LIVES, WHICH SHOWS HOW WELL WE RAN THE RACE. SO SMILE, LAUGH, FORGIVE, BELIEVE, AND LOVE ALL OVER AGAIN.